"When I first met Pete, I was a woman who didn’t like or trust men, or women, or, to be honest, anyone I didn’t know, maybe even a few people I did know. I always had to be right, because I WAS always right, I knew best, it was my way or no way. I was known by everyone who knew me as “The Queen bitch!” and I was proud of it. I enjoyed taking people down verbally, it made me feel powerful, in short I was not a very nice person unless it was my way. I was not happy, I was not living, I was existing, while I didn’t want to live, I certainly never thought of taking my own life, but I was disappointed when I awoke to face another day. A good day for me was a day I didn’t cry, a day where I didn’t want to just sit and watch TV stuffing myself with all sorts of ‘goodies’ until I felt sick, wait for it to pass and then carry on. I believed I was worthless, I was unlovable, I had two failed marriages, the one common denominator was me, ergo I was the one at fault, I was the one no one could, would love….then I met Pete.
I was not an easy person and I fought all the way, it took a while to accept that when Pete chose to love me as a human being, that was his choice and he truly, truly, didn’t want anything in return, this is unconditional love. Because of his love and guidance, teaching me how to overcome/work through my pain, my troubles, as I saw them, how to choose a better way to be, for myself, not Pete or anyone else, but for me, I now, for the first time in my 58 years of life, know what happiness is, I know what it is like to be unconditionally loved for who I am, not for what I can give.
Every day is miracle, I am so happy to be alive, to awake to a new wonderful day, a day full of opportunities to love others, to share the unconditional love that was given to me with my friends and family by simply loving them unconditionally. I rarely feel angry, which is such a blessing to me and my family, especially my grandchildren, where once they were afraid of Nanny because I shouted a lot and was angry, now they want to spend time with me, asking every time I see them when they can come and stay, they greet me with shouts of joy and run to me for a great big cuddle. None of this would have been possible without the love, guidance and support from Pete. He chose to love and teach me, he was there when I
needed it and he is still there. I no longer lie, and I now trust people, trust was a big one for me, but by choosing to trust Pete it put me on the path of a life changing experience.
I am almost 59, and for the last 3+ years of knowing Pete, I can honestly say that he has changed my life, or rather shown and taught me the skills, knowledge and information I needed to change my life for the better. I get to choose how to be, I get to choose who I am and where I am going, what path I walk along, and with all of this comes freedom, freedom from the stress and anxiety of trying to live my life for others, freedom to be me, what a gift!
I am eternally grateful to Pete for taking time for me, for choosing to love me as a fellow traveller in this world and wanting absolutely nothing in return. A wonderful example of unconditional love, I would not be where I am today if I had not met Pete.